How long does it take until one learns…
Have you ever wonder how long does it take until one learns to let go? To move on? To start new? To give a chance? To do something else? To change? (etc etc etc)
The thing about me is that I take really really long to learn to let go. It’s just so hard to drop something I have hold on for so long. It is not easy and for me, I have always prefer holding on until I really find someone better then I might move on. Sometimes, it’s really weird. Somehow I know there are chances out there for me but I still choose to be with you under any circumstances at all. We went through more than enough to test the results of whether we were meant to be together. I can love you so much that there won’t be any love that could top what I have and can offer to you.
Songs that is showering me with all these thoughts are;
- Heaven by Nu Flavor
- I’m Your Angel by Celine Dion and R.Kelly
- I Can Love You Like That by All for One
- Four Seasons of Loneliness by Boyz II Men
- Nothing’s Gonna Change My Love For you by George Benson
- All or Nothing by O-town
- If You Come Back & Guilty by Blue
- If I Let You Go by WestLife
- More Than That & Don’t Wanna Lose You Now by BackStreet Boys
- Say Goodbye by Deborah Gibson and Jordan Knight
- I Finally Found Someone by Bryan Adams and Barbra Streisand
- When You Tell Me That You Love Me by Diana Ross
- Wait For You by Elliot Yamin
How come, how long??? Although to be able to have you back the chances are low because I know I made a lot of mistakes. Too much to calculate nor compare and as bad as it seems, I really don’t want things to go this way. I may not have said "I love you" frequent enough but that doesn’t mean I have forgotten about it or I don’t love you anymore. You just don’t see it do you, just how much you mean to me??? What is meant to be, is meant to be. In the PLU world, it’s pretty hard to accept facts like that but that’s the way it is. Correct..welcome to REAL world people.
Fucking hell!!! My tattoo is giving me the worst itchiness in the world!! Damn!!! OMG!! WTF!!
I am totally classified as a lame person. I lost part of me that I used to have and I have lost the best part of myself. All of a sudden, I couldn’t find my vibe and almost everything..you are the only one that can help me regain all that I have lost. You do know that don’t you?? That is why you’re letting me suffer right now. Yeah..I am really feeling the pain. If only…if only..if only…if only……………..
5 years…give me 5 years..things are going to be different. There might be a handful of you guys looking down on PLU but hey, take a look around..you’re surrounded by us!! I may have lost the fight a couple of rounds but the battle is an experience that I really devour. Please, look upon yourself before you speak of others. Each individual has their own capabilities. You may not give me the chance to prove it to you but I will take my chances and at times, opportunities are self-created. There are always others better than you are, same goes to me. There are always better ones out there but I will fight to be the best.
One word..LOVE says it all. Trust me, it does make a difference. And of course, friends are totally not put away under any circumstances at all!!!
Til then..JustLake Julz signing off.
